A Real Human Boy!

Haven't done this in a while, but I've been working on an actual project that's taking a lot of time and keeping me occupied. Short version is I'm turning a TV pilot script that got some good response but did not result in me making a TV show into a podcast. I'm going to do eight episodes in the first season and we can't really record until people can be in the same room, but I'm going to have scripts ready. And that's been a positive thing because it's fun and because I've wanted to tell this story for a long time. Plus, my friends are willing to do voices and it'll be a good time. My friend Summer made some beautiful art for it that I love so much - it's the lock screen on my phone now and sometimes I look at it and think that somebody I care about was inspired to make actual art by my weird premise and I feel a whole range of emotions. Sam just finished the theme song and it's perfect. These people are so damn talented and I'...

 For those of you looking for closure, my insomnia is letting up. Basically, over two nights I get about five hours of sleep.Which isn’t great, but it’s enough to keep me from losing my mind. I’m not sure why I called that “closure”. Apparently I assume that’s how it’s going to be from now on. I don’t know what this says about my mental state, but I put my friend Becky in charge of letting people know if I get coronavirus. My sister tells her and then she has contact information for everybody who would need to know. It sounds morbid. I mean, it is morbid. But I have some far-off friends who wouldn’t necessarily know if anything happened. It makes me feel a little better.  But man, depression has been kicking my ass the last week or so. I mean, it’s been an issue for a while, hence this sporadically updated blog. It’s just really kicked into high gear. I’m in a place right now where I’m super aware of everything that’s wrong with me and the terrible self-esteem, my old friend, ...

I like video games a lot, even if I don't have much time to play and also I think I'm getting worse at them. Right now there's a puzzle I can't solve in Luigi's Mansion 3 , a game for actual children. The big game release of quarantine times is Animal Crossing: New Horizons , a game where you maintain an island full of animal friends.  It's a popular franchise, but the social aspect made it really appealing during lockdown. You can get online and have friends visit your island and trade items, and it seemed like a lot of fun. My Nintendo Switch has issues with my home router. When I try to get online, I get an error message that I have to reconfigure my router, and you might as well tell me I have to kill a bear with a butter knife. It's not a possibility. But I heard that was an issue with earlier Switches and newer ones were less picky about getting online. So I bought a new Switch (a Switch Lite, to be specific) and figured it would be worth it since I ...

The issue with doing this blog and trying to update it semi-regularly is that my depression isn't really taking on new shades. I have nothing new to report because everything is exactly the same as it was, which is all part of the problem. So this entry is going to be like one of those Sopranos episodes where, like, Paulie is upset that he's not getting a piece of the church carnival concessions, a situation that has never been referenced before and never will be again. You know, that's one thing about The Sopranos that really stands out now. There are some episodes where nothing happens. Or more to the point, there's one small thing that happens to advance an ongoing storyline but that's three minutes out of the episode and then they still had to fill out an hour. Even though David Chase started in TV, he's a guy who thinks movies are better and he didn't seem to get that every episode has to be a satisfying unit of entertainment. In later years, Mad Men ...